Changes (Again!)

I have to admit that I'm not a big one for change.  I like my comfortable little section of the world.  So much so that EVERY SINGLE TIME in my life that I have been 100% content with the way things are or where we are at God says, "Time to make another change, Becky!"  You would think that by this point in our lives I would have figured out that nothing stays the same and that life is continually changing!

Our newest (and perhaps most challenging) change is that we have decided to take on homeschooling the twins.  This has been something that we have prayed hard about and have done much research on before making the final decision.  It has come with many hours of talking to other homeschool families, looking at curriculum, making pros and cons lists, and of course PRAYING!

It is something that has been on my heart since before the twins started Kindergarten.  It's something that I thought about again when we were making our move to Singapore and than again when we made the move back to the US.  It recently was laid on my heart again when I spent a few hours alone in the car on a trip so I began to pray about it again.  During that ride a few things occurred to me.  I realized that there were a few doors that needed to "open" before this would even be an option.

1.  I had to have a complete peace about it
2.  Ryan had to be 100% on board  and
3.  the twins needed to be willing. 

That evening when Ryan called to check in (he was out of town) I brought it up to him again.  I talked though all the reasons I had for the "why?" and the "how?" and the "What in the WORLD am I THINKING???"  He listened for awhile before saying that it was something we could start considering.  In the past his reasons for "why" and "how" were different than mine and for the first time we were finally on the same page about it.  So began the HOURS of praying and researching and talking.  I also asked the twins casually what they thought about being home schooled.  Although they were both excited about the possibility it wasn't entirely for the right reasons!  So we talked about what it would be like and what would be required.  They were still interested so now I was down to the peace part...the most important part!

Through the many discussions that I had with Ryan about the pros and cons I realized that God had been going before us paving the way for this moment.  When we first moved back to the US it was really hard for me because I went from having a very active social life to spending more and more time at home.  It was a hard transition but at some point during the past 6 months it went from becoming something that was hard to a new lifestyle that I had accepted.  I was at a point for the first time in my adult life where it wouldn't be such a huge transition from an active social life during the day to staying home with the kids and teaching them.  All the times I had questioned God with "Why haven't I found friends like I had before?" He was preparing me for what was ahead!   And with that knowledge came peace...the final door to be opened!

I realize that the coming days will not be without challenge but I am ready to take on the challenge of teaching the kids at home and I'm excited to get to see their learning and growing first hand!  (I'm also very nervous so ask for any prayers you are willing to send up for me!)  It will be interesting to see how it all goes and I'm sure there will be days that I have to rely on the fact that I KNOW that this is what God wants in our lives at this time:)